Australia Day 10, Summer is going to be amazing

Vent

I want to tear your face apart
I want to rip the skin off your arms
I want to kick you in the face with studded boots on
I want to throw your face into a fucking wall
I want to give you nightmares
I want to make you never wake up
I want to want to rip out your fucking jugular with my hands
I want to pour boiling oil onto your face
I want to put thumbtacks under your fingernails
I want to fucking watch you cry
I want to make you suffer, be it physically or mentally
I want to watch you burn in the street as I walk away smiling with an empty bottle of gasoline in my hand

 

Being in Love

When you don't care what anybody else thinks
Because you know they make you happy
It's worth fighting for

Nightmares

A fresh start

I am fighting for it
Because I know he is worth it
I know this was something more
I don't care what everyone says
Im starting from the begginging

Dear

Did I really ruin all your favourite songs?
Are you really moving on?
How are you?
How was your weekend?
I wish I could talk to you
It is so surreal not being able to contact you
I miss you, I really do..
You wouldn't begin to understand
Are you angry at me?
I know you know this is right?
I need you in my life
But right now we need time

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I hate having you on facebook

Your in my head constantly

Season 3 Final Episode

Confession: This still makes me cry

But what if it doesn't

she is pretty

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

1.  Im lost without you. I need time from you but I still need you. Im not moving on..
2. We haven't spoken lately, come to mine sometime and make burrito's with me I need company,lately I have been falling apart
3. This weekend was amazing, you are amazing, I love you, thank you.
4. Your jacket for HSC was amazing, you are amazing, I love your style, I love you, I love spending time with you and I miss you already.
5. You know me too well and I have only known you for under a month. You know everything that is going on with me and its helping em so much having you to talk to. I trust you and I don't feel weird doing so. You are an amazing person thankyou.
6. Maybe you shouldn't assume things about me.
7. You are all talk
8. You are always on my mind
9. Im here for you if you ever need someone to talk to, I understand even if you don't think I do.
10. You have been there for me ever since I started at Inaburra. You are such a wonderful person and you are so in love with her.. she doesnt deserve you.

I found a new distraction

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
Day Ten: One confession.

Enrichment is over and done with, what now ?

Sick

You all know nothing

It don't matter, where you turn
Gonna survive, you live and learn.
I've been thinking about you, baby.

By the light of dawn,
And midnight blue ... day and night ... I've been missing you.
I've been thinking about you, baby.
Almost makes me crazy,
Come and live with me.


Either way, win or lose,
When you're born into trouble,
You live the blues,
I've been thinking about you, baby.
See: it almost makes me crazy.

Child, nothing's right if you ain't here
I'd give all that I have, just to keep you near
I wrote you a letter, and tried to make it clear,
But you just don't believe that I'm sincere.
I've been thinking about you, baby.

Plans and schemes, hopes and fears,
Dreams I've denied for all these years
 

I've been thinking about you, baby
Makes me wanna..

Swallows and Vodka

You taste like lead poisoning

I feel so

Can't change your past

Terrible Afternoon

Im thinking to much
Misery needs company
I still like these photos
Is that wrong

This ain't a love song

Every night I remember that event
The way you looked when you said you were leaving
The way you cried as you turned to walk away
The cruel words and the false accusations
The mean looks and the same old frustrations
I never thought that we'd throw it all away
But we threw it all away.

And I'm a little bit lost without you
And I'm a bloody big mess inside
And I'm a little bit lost without you
This aint a love song this is goodbye

I've been lost, I've been losing
I've been tired, I'm all hurt and confusion
I've been mad, I'm the kind of man that I'm not
I'm going down, I'll be coming back fighting
I may be scared and a little bit frightened
But I'll be back, I'll be coming back to life
I'll be coming back to life
I wont be lost, i wont be down
And I'm a little bit lost without you
And I'm a bloody big mess inside
This ain't a love song this is goodbye

It's alright (It's alright) cause you can try but you'll never keep me down
It's alright I may be lost but you'll never keep me down
You can try you can try but you'll never keep me down
You cant try I know i'm lost but I'm waiting to be found
you'll never keep me down
you'll never keep me down
never keep me down

I want to reconcile the violence in your heart

"Thank you for wrecking probably

every single one of my favourite songs."

Here is one you may remember

Assumptions

Im not like that

Our song

This is our song, always was always has been since NYE 09.
That is nearly two years, and now when I look back all I see is happiness and love
This reminds me of how much fun we had together
Roadtrips, staying at your grandparents beach house, driving down to uni, days in the city, come together, camping, sleepovers, the farm, our anniversarys.. New Years Eve.
All those times where it was impossible to wipe a smile off my face.
You were an amazing person, and we had some amazing times.
Thankyou for everything.

In need of closure

This made me so sad the other day

I guess Thursday night sort of did it for me I guess, You changed your mind I know.
But the point is you said you didn't care, you said it straight to my face.
Even if it was just an act, even if you were just trying to push me away.
I guess in the end you did.
I need space from you, and your irrationality.
I want you, to cuddle with you and kiss you and tell you its going to be ok
I need to cut off all ties with you, for a while. Not move on but to get over you.
I want you as my friend
I need you as my friend
But that will come in time..

And yet again Lucy saves the day..

This weekend was amazing, I love you Lucy you saved me. I really needed this. 

As soon as you left my stomach just dropped I was so lonely.

Just thinking about seeing you tomorrow makes my face light up.

You are amazing.

And to Cameron, Locky, Blair, Kaite & Ryan

Thankyou

You are all amazing

thank you for distracting me

 Bonfire at the heights

 

B's House

 

Bed with Lucy

 

Train ride home with a pit stop to Hville for sushi

 

I will love you with all my strawberry

 

Fondue nomnomnom

 

<3

 

Lindt cafe in the city with these absolute babes

 

Made my hair more blue

 

B.U.T

Thankyou so much

B's

Sunday Night

Love Sac + Beer + Winning COD + B = Immense Happiness to a great magnitude that is not even comprehend-able to the human mind

feelin this

 

This place was never the same again
After you came and went
How can you say you meant anything different
To anyone standing alone on the street
With a cigarette on the first night we met 

 

Look to the past and remember her smile
And maybe tonight I can breathe for a while
I'm not in this scene I think I'm falling asleep
But then all that it means is I'll always be dreaming of you

 

Fate fell short this time
Your smile fades in the summer
Place your hand in mine
I'll leave when I wanna

Everyone knows Im in over my head

And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and it's effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves

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