my future cat

backwards

“Sometimes I think I was born backwards… you know,
come out of my mum the wrong way. I hear words go past me backwards.
The people I should love, I hate, and the people I hate…”

wrong wrong wrong

today I made something
It was hideous
I wanted to throw up
it clawed its way out of the page and tore me apart
I am in pieces all over my room
If next time you see me im not "all there",
I must have lost a piece when I was gluing myself back together
Tomorrow I will stay alone
I hate talking to people
They don't interest me anymore
Nothing does
except pictures
They are horrible pictures that make me want to scream
I don't cry anymore
I can't remember the last time I did
You want to know whats wrong with me
Ask a doctor or a proffessional of some sort
because...

I HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME

paranoia

so they say..

binded by common interests

We don't have a care in the world, we share common interests...

yet your just a cook
your not him
your difficult and confusing
but interesting...

bottled emotions

I do love you
I don't have a reason for how I am right now
But you mean everything to me
And yet my smile is stil fake
you have been through this
you are busy I know
and im left in the dark for later
but I need your help
Im losing hope

dear panda

your my everything
I would be nothing without you
And ps, your not useless
you make some dam fine buritos

in love with facebook boutiques

Your not him

Your just cook
and fuck that Im not going to be your Effy

i miss you

A letter to a stranger

I don’t know if I could really consider you a stranger, because I know of your existence. I just don’t know what you’ve become, or who you are anymore. At one point, I thought that change was a natural part of life and I had to accept that, but I always believed you would remain you. Now, whenever I look in your eyes, I see nothing. I don’t know where the vibrancy went. I don’t know how we drifted so far from each other. I don’t quite comprehend how you went from being the only thing to hold me up to being the one thing that tore me down. It’s a huge transaction, I must admit, from trust to betrayal.  What happened to me being there for you, and you there for me? Why does it seem like you’re only there to find out what I have and take it away? What does that make you? Do you only think about yourself now? As far as I’m concerned, at this point and time, you and I were merely two people who caught gazes as we passed. We were never friends.

kudos to rchelmace

dream catch me

 


my dreams don't mean anything
yet I know I would be nothing without them

R.I.P Edie Sedgwick

" Fuck heaven. Who wants to hang out with Mother Teresa and St. Francis and that shmuck Ghandi and his pet goat? Send me to Hell. I want to shoot speedballs with Edie and Jim Morrison and play poker with Jackson Pollack and Marlon Brando for eternity. Of course Mae West is invited. And Mussolini if he can behave himself. "

thinking of a change in hair

I want to be somebody's factory girl

we will be always

Am I keeping you awake, if i am then just say,
you can make your own decisions; you can make your own mistakes,
i'll live and let die all the promises you made,
but if you lie another time, it'll be a lie thats to late.

You always have your way,
for now it to soon for you to say,
we will be always always.

2 year countdown

i cant wait to move to london
i will be gone and all you haters can go fuck yourselves
you say i  dont have dreams

fuck you

my dream is getting away from here
deleting my facebook and formspring
and getting the fuck away this place

This is for the people who care about me, my best friends. Nobody else.

To all my good friends
Im sorry about everything 
Lately I have been a mess
I don't know why

I know I haven't been making an effort to see you 
Or written back to your messages
I just need you to know I love you all
And please don't leave my life because of this


When I get out of this place Im in I will find you all
one by one
and apologize
but right now nothing really makes me happy
Everything is just blank


You may say you have seen me laughing or smiling in person or in photos
I thought about it last night, all of that was just temporary happiness
It only lasts a few seconds-minutes and when it's gone its empty again


Im in this weird place right now
I need support but I just want to be alone

I wrote this to a good friend when I was drunk
It sounds stupid but it is how I feel


"Im at a party sitting by myself, I don't understand I just want to go home. These people make me irritable and I just hate being here. I dont understand. I see my friends, I want to be by myself. I see my boyfriend, I just want to be by myself in my own home. I go out to a party, I just want to go home. Im at home, alone, and I just feel lonely and bad to my friends."


I have been absorbing myself within schoolwork and photography lately
but i still feel so bad,
your always writing to me on facebook, texting me, calling me
Im really sorry, you treat me so well and you deserve better
I just wrote this blog to apologize to you all


you are amazing people and i love you all so much
thankyou

Schoolies or flight to London?

I am currently at home sick
I like being at home when my parents are not
It is a slight taste of freedom

One day I will run away
The day I get my HSC results Im on the first plane to London
Im thinking I might not go to Schoolies
And use the money I save to get a flight and maybe a really dirt cheap apartment
See I do have some sort of dreams

I don't exactly have a group of friends I have been with throughout my whole high school life
My friends have changed constantly
Only the special ones have remained, and I hope they never leave like Lani Gemma Hannah and Esha

And I hope the girls I have met throughout this time stay with me like Lucy and Rchel
These girls make everything better
So what is the point of me going to schoolies

One day I will have

A pair of Vintage Chanel Earrings

enlighten

morning

I don't care if im not wearing makeup

I love these photos

and I love my puppy

 

Im on the pursuit of happiness

Crush a bit, little bit, roll it up, take a hit
Feelin’ lit feelin’ light, 2 am summer night.
I don't care, hand on the wheel, drivin drunk, I'm doin’ my thang
Rollin the Mid side and out livin’ my life getting’ out dreams
People told me slow my roll I'm screaming out fuck that
Imma do just what I want lookin’ ahead no turnin’ back
if I fall if I die know I lived it to the fullest
if I fall if I die know I lived and missed some bullets


Tell me what you know about dreamin’ dreamin’
you don't really know about nothin’ nothin’
tell me what you know about them night terrors every night
5 am, cold sweats wakin’ up to the skies
tell me what you know about dreams, dreams
tell me what you know about night terrors, nothin’
you don't really care about the trials of tomorrow
rather lay awake in a bed full of sorrow


I'm on the pursuit of happiness
And I know everything that shines ain't always gonna be gold, hey
I'll be fine once I get it, yeah
I'll be good

Pursuit of happiness, yeah
I don’t get it, I’ll be good

friday afternoon in the madhouse

it's just one of those days

your pathetic

To all you mighty keyboard warriors

when hearts collide

borrowed off gemma wolfganga

Kissed someone. *
Smoked cigarettes. *
Got so drunk you passed out. *
Rode every ride at an amusement park. 
Collected something really stupid. *
Gone to a rock concert.*
Helped someone. *
Gone fishing.
Watched four movies in one night.*
Gone long periods of time with out sleep. *
Lied to someone. *
Been dumped. *
Snorted cocaine.*
Failed a class. *
Smoked weed.*
Dealt drugs.*
Taken a college level course.
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado.
Done hard drugs (i.e. ecstasy, heroin, crack, meth, acid, gear). *
Watched someone die.
Been to a funeral.
Burned yourself accidently. *
Ran a marathon.
Your parents got divorced. (love child)
Cried yourself to sleep. *
Spent over $200 in one day. *
Flown on a plane. *
Cheated on someone. *
Been cheated on. *
Gone skiing.*
Had a best friend. *
Lost someone you loved.
Shoplifted something. *
Been to jail.
Had detention. *
Skipped school. *
Got in trouble for something you didn’t do. *
Stolen books from a library.*
Gone to a different country.*
Dropped out of school.
Been in a mental hospital.
Watched the “Harry Potter” movies. *
Had an online diary. *
Fired a gun.
Gambled in a casino.*
Had a yard sale.
Had a lemonade stand.
Actually made money at the lemonade stand.
Been in a school play. *
Been fired from a job.*
Swam with dolphins.*
Voted for American/Australian Idol.
Written Poetry. *
Read more than 20 books a year.*
Gone to Europe.*
Loved someone you couldn’t have.*
Wondered about your sexuality.
Used a coloring book over age 12. *
Had surgery.*
Taken a taxi. *
Overdosed. *
Had a drug or alcohol problem. *
Had a hamster.
Pet a wild animal. *
Used a credit card.*
Gone surfing.
Dyed your hair. *
Got a tattoo. (WANT) !!!!
Had something pierced. *
Got straight A’s.
Taken pictures with a webcam. *
Started a fire. *
Had a party while your parents weren’t home.
Gotten caught having a party while they were gone.

waiting

Just waiting for something to change...

i really need you right now

But I just want to be alone...

I don't know what is

psychosis

im going to my room for a bit
i want to be alone

Ladies Please

Lady Rumba & Lady Swan

rizzo-whatley

Because she is my wolfganga  :)

fspringa

im not a stable enough person to maintain a formspring.

hello my name is

Hi my name is Erica Woodward and I am

i love your warmth

waiting for your texts in the cold afternoons all snuggly and warm in a big blanket
the highlight of my day

to wolfganga

it's been to long

My sister is coming over tomorrow

and I couldn't be happier..